#IAspireToBe - Success Is Within You by Nabiha Rizwan

Here today, sitting in my garden, looking at the silent stars doesn't make me sad anymore, instead it makes me happy and peaceful. It wants me to share the journey from my old self to the new me.

Remembering my old self, I used to get dejected by looking at those stars. I've memories of those nights. After a regretful, hard day I used to sit in my garden, look at the stars and cry out loud. I had a lot of questions running through my mind.

What is success? How do I get it? Do I believe I'm worthy of it? How am I? How am I not?

My old self didn't have any answers to them but my new self says that, "Success is something within myself. Every time, when I breathe peacefully, it's my win, my success that makes me breathe peacefully. I am happy, I've accepted myself, I am now serene. The storm inside me has settled down.

What kind of storm I possessed inside myself, my heart, my brain, my subconscious? A storm of not being able to ACCEPT myself. Not being able to LOVE myself. A storm of competing with others. A storm with a lot more chaos of other things that made me bitter, annoyed, crazy, noisy within myself.

The kind of personality I had wasn't pleasant. Wanting to be like others never made me be myself. Admiring others never made me admire my own self. Being envious of someone's success never made me find my own success. Trying to feel myself how others wanted to never made me feel myself the way I wanted to. Life wasn't going well. Nothing was okay. Every time, I wanted to scream out loud and shed tears. What was it? What was annoying me? I didn't have any answers to these thoughts. Slowly but steadily experiencing and dealing with people made me realize how this world works! How does life go on! which helped me build my new self.